The Eighth Apparition – Apparition to
Peter and the Apostles
Usual Preparation Prayer.
First Prelude: The history: Here, we can consider the Biblical text that Ignatius
proposes Jn 21:1-17, or really we’ll consider up to 22. We will remember that
after the Resurrection, Peter and a number of the Apostles went out fishing
but, after they had caught nothing all night, Jesus appeared to them, and they
recognized Him on account of the miraculous catch.
Second Prelude: The composition of place: This is a mental representation of the place. Here it
will be to see in the imagination Lake Tiberias, “called Gennesaret in ancient
times. [The lake], almost oval in shape, measures about seven and one-half
miles across at its widest point and is thirteen miles long.”
The Apostles would have known it well.
 Third Prelude: The petition: This is to ask for what I desire: to be glad and
rejoice intensely because of the great joy and the glory of Christ our Lord.
Ignatius gives us a few
simple points to follow:
First: Jesus appears to seven of His Disciples who were fishing, and had taken
nothing all night; and spreading the net by His command, “They were not able to
draw it out for the multitude of the fishes.”
Second: By this miracle St. John knew Him and said to St. Peter: “‘It is the
Lord!’” He cast himself into the sea and came to Christ.
Third: He gave them to eat part of a fish roasted, and recommended the sheep to
St. Peter, having first examined him three times on charity, and says to him:
“‘Feed My sheep!’”
The last chapter of John’s Gospel recounts for us another
apparition of our Lord to His Apostles, an apparition that is perhaps
particularly beautiful and profound for we who are religious, who make our
lives professing Christ as Lord and spending our days in the service of our
We can consider three points: first, the Apostles out
fishing, second, Peter’s triple confession of His love, and thirdly, the last
exchange between Jesus and Peter.
were Simon Peter, Thomas called Didymus, Nathanael from Cana in Galilee,
Zebedee’s sons, and two others of his disciples. Simon Peter said to them, ‘I
am going fishing.’ They said to him, “We also will come with you.” So they went
out and got into the boat, but that night they caught nothing. When it was
already dawn, Jesus was standing on the shore; but the disciples did not
realize that it was Jesus. Jesus said to them, ‘Children, have you caught
anything to eat? They answered him, ‘No.’ So he said to them, ‘Cast the net
over the right side of the boat and you will find something.’ So they cast it,
and were not able to pull it in because of the number of fish” (Jn 21:2-6).
can imagine the cool breeze coming off of the lake, as the sun slowly rose over
the horizon. It had been night when the apostles set out in Peter’s boat, and it
should call our attention that, after such a long time away with Jesus, Peter’s
boat was just as he had left it, as if he had never given it up entirely. We’re
presented with the Apostles who, despite the appearances and assurances of
Jesus, continue in their disbelief, or who, at the very least, are unable to
fathom what the two previous appearances mean. The result is almost comical,
and we see this in two things that call our attention: first, Peter’s words, “I
am going fishing,” and second, the apostles whom John points out. Regarding the
first, Peter uses two very specific Greek words; a more literal translation
would be “I am going back to being a fisherman.” He makes it clear that he
intends to return to his former way of life, as if he could simply walk away
from and forget the past three years with Jesus, to cast into oblivion the
miracles, the graces, the healings, but also, and perhaps closer to his heart,
his denials, his failings, and his falling short. The evangelist shows further
how confused the Apostles are by first pointing out that with Peter are Thomas
called Didymus and Nathanael from Cana in Galilee. Tradition holds that Thomas
was an architect or at least a builder, and while no profession is recorded for
Nathanael, and experts aren’t sure exactly where the town of Cana was located,
all the possible locations place it miles from the sea. In other words, Thomas
and Nathanael were two very unlikely candidates for a life of fishing, and yet
John lists them first, as though they were the most eager to follow Peter.
two points can also be seen in our lives. At times we can feel like we simply
want to walk away, to forget the difficulties and, yes, our failings too. We
might be convinced that the “grass is greener on the other side,” that it’s
easier somewhere else, or doing something else. More often than not, however,
it’s not that dramatic; we just want to let up in some part of our lives, to
avoid giving everything to Jesus and to instead take some shortcut. Yet, no
matter what we do, no matter how we try to get away from God, the memory of
those graces, and His Mercy, remain. To try to do something other than love God
entirely is, for the religious, like sending an architect out fishing: it doesn’t
make sense, because it goes against who we are and what we are called to be.
for us, God is very merciful and very patient, and if we constantly turn to Him
in prayer and the sacraments, He comes to find us. This is what He does in
Peter’s case. Although the events recalled in the second part of the Gospel
seem just like those of Lk 5:1-11, when Peter was first called, something is
different; some words are missing. When told to lower the nets on the other
side of the boat, this time, at the end of John’s Gospel, Peter doesn’t give a
reply; he simply obeys.
have to understand for a moment how difficult and odd that first command from
Jesus was for a fisherman. After all, Peter was a fisherman; he knew how to
fish, and some strange figure on the shore couldn’t change what hundreds, if
not thousands, of years of fishing experience had proven. There are at least
three reasons why Peter shouldn’t have listened to Christ. First, Peter was the
fisherman, and Christ a carpenter. Secondly, every fisherman knows the best
time for fishing is at night, not during the day. Thirdly, throwing the net on
the wrong side of the boat is to be set up for disaster if the nets get caught
or tangled. Peter knows that the command
is a strange one, and while he obeys, he only does so halfheartedly: in Luke’s
account, in the Greek, Jesus asks Peter to lower the nets. Peter replies that he will lower a net, not several, but one. Jesus, though, takes what he’s given,
and works with what He has. Perhaps recalling this, after the Resurrection, He
only asks Peter to lower a single net,
because that’s where his faith is at.
in John’s Gospel, the point is not that the dialogue is changed, but that Peter
has changed. Jesus doesn’t let him walk away from his calling instead meets the
Rock where he is at. Jesus waits, with His mercy, to encourage Peter in his
calling. We see this beautifully in another particular detail: Jesus is waiting
with a charcoal fire. The word for the fire in Greek is very specific, ἀνθρακιά
(anthrakia) and it is found only in two places in the entire New Testament:
here, and in Jn 18:18, when Peter warms himself by the fire and denies Christ
three times. Jesus brings that fire, not to condemn Peter for his failings, but
to show His love for the prince of the Apostles in spite of them.
this fourth week, Saint Ignatius asks us to consider “the office of consoler
that Christ our Lord exercises, and compare it with the way in which friends
are wont to console each other.” Could anything be gentler, or more full of
compassion, than the way that Jesus prepares a feast on the shore? There’s
bread, warmth, fish, companionship . . . Jesus has everything prepared for them.
Although He was certainly hurt by Peter’s denial, He comes quickly to show His
love and forgiveness. Even then, Christ doesn’t force the issue; He waits until
after they had shared a meal.
they had finished breakfast, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon, son of John, do
you love me more than these?” He said to him, “Yes, Lord, you know that I love
you.” He said to him, “Feed my lambs.” He then said to him a second time,
“Simon, son of John, do you love me?” He said to him, “Yes, Lord, you know that
I love you.” He said to him, “Tend my sheep.” He said to him the third time,
“Simon, son of John, do you love me?” Peter was distressed that he had said to
him a third time, “Do you love me?” and he said to him, “Lord, you know
everything; you know that I love you.” [Jesus] said to him, “Feed my sheep.
Amen, amen, I say to you, when you were younger, you used to dress yourself and
go where you wanted; but when you grow old, you will stretch out your hands,
and someone else will dress you and lead you where you do not want to go.” He
said this signifying by what kind of death he would glorify God. And when he
had said this, he said to him, ‘Follow me.’”
Peter had denied Our Lord three times, Our Blessed Lord asked him three times
if he loved Him. There are two things we can notice here: first, that Jesus
calls Peter “Simon, son of John,” and not “Peter,” and second, the dialogue
can appreciate the fact that Jesus calls Peter by his old name. “Simon, son of
John.” Within each of us, that struggle between the greatness of our call, and
the weaknesses and failings of our old nature, the “old man,” rages
incessantly. We could call it the struggle between “Simon” and “Peter.” Yet,
Christ does not leave us alone in our struggle; again, He comes to meet Peter
where he is at.
but surely, Peter came to dominate over Simon. In the New Testament, after
Pentecost there’s less and less mention of Simon, and it’s only mentioned for a
particular reason. For instance, Cornelius is told to look for “Simon, who is
surnamed Peter” in Acts 10:5, since outsiders would know him by one name,
Christians by another. At the Council of Jerusalem James calls him “Simon”
because of their long friendship but, elsewhere, he is simply Peter. That
impulsive daring has become steadfast, bridled courage. The only time we see
the name Simon is in his last epistle, when he repeats the name himself, to
recall humbly his old, unsanctified self.
The turning point came when, on the shore, he surrendered himself to Christ.
the dialogue itself, the words that are used, reveals Christ’s profound love
most standout word in the dialogue is this word, ‘love.’ We have only one word in English for “love,”
which is the source of confusions. The Greeks had at least three words for love
— two of them as used in the Gospel. One Greek word for love is philia, which means a natural human love
and affection; it’s rarely used in the Gospels. The other is agape, which means a sacrificial love,
the highest love, a supernatural love. It implies that the person loving knows
the preciousness, the value, of the beloved.
word that Christ uses is not the same one that Peter replies with: in the first
two questions, Jesus uses the word agape,
and Peter replies with philia. The
third time, both Christ and Peter use philia.
Peter once presumed the greatness of his love, telling His master the night of
the Last Supper that even though everyone else might abandon Him, he would not.
had already been made the “rock of the Church”: now Our Lord commissions him
further – to feed His lambs and feed His sheep. Before doing that, He asked if
he loved: “Simon, son of John, do you love Me?” In challenging Peter, the Lord gave
him the opportunity of three time confessing and proclaiming His divinity after
three times denying it. In the first question, the Lord challenges the superiority of Peter’s love (agape); in the second, He challenged if
Peter had any love at all (agape); in
the third question, the Lord challenged even his affection (philia). This was the most searching
question of all, and it pierced the heart of Peter and made him sad, but the
Lord wounds only that He may heal. After each of the triple confessions of
Peter came the commission to ‘feed My lambs and feed My sheep’: that is to say,
to minister spiritual nourishment to His people and to the young.
the last exchange, Christ Himself uses Peter’s philia; He scales down His demands on Peter. He was no longer
calling for the victim kind of love for which He had first asked. It is as if
Our Lord were putting His hands under that poor, weak, fragile love of Peter,
just as He in fact starts with our poor, weak, human love as the beginning of a
rich apostolate. The Lord asked for a love of devotion, and all He got was a
love of emotion. But even that He does not reject. It’s not enough, He says,
but it’s enough to start.
to note are the words that Peter uses when he says, “Lord, you know everything;
you know that I love you.” In the Greek, the word which Peter used when he said
that Our Lord knew all things implied a knowledge by Divine Vision. When Peter
said that the Lord knew that he loved Him, the Greek word meant only knowledge
by direct observation. Peter has walked down the ladder of humility, for Christ
truly knows from direct experience how Peter loves.
our lives, too, Christ comes to us. Fr. Jacques Philippe puts it this way. He
writes: “God is ‘realistic.’ His grace does not operate on our imaginings,
ideals, or dreams. It works on reality, the specific, concrete elements of our
lives. Even if the fabric of our everyday lives doesn’t look very glorious to
us, only there can we be touched by God’s grace. The person God loves with the
tenderness of a Father . . . is not the person we’d have liked to be or ought
to be. It’s the person we are. God doesn’t love ‘ideal persons’ or ‘virtual
beings.’ He loves actual, real people. . . .
A great deal of time can be wasted in the spiritual life complaining
that we are not like this or not like that, lamenting this defect or that
limitation, imagining all the good we could do if, instead of being the way we
are, we were less defective, more gifted with this or that quality or virtue,
and so on. Here is a waste of time and energy that merely impedes the work of
the Holy Spirit in our hearts. What often blocks the action of God’s grace in
our lives is less our sins or failings, than it is our failure to accept our
own weaknesses. . . . The Holy Spirit
never acts unless we freely cooperate. We must accept ourselves just as we are,
if the Holy Spirit is to change us for the better.”
this point, Jesus could have asked Peter anything in the world. “Peter, do you
promise not to drop the ball again?” “Peter, do you promise that you will be
more humble and not trust in yourself so much?” or even “I told you so.” But
Christ doesn’t. The only thing He asks is if Peter loves Him, because if He has
Peter’s love, He has everything else. He can’t ask Peter not to fail, because
he will. He can’t ask Peter to never mess up, because that’s part of the human
condition. All He asks is for His love.
condition of Peter’s vocation, and of every vocation, is that love of Christ.
Jesus will provide everything else Peter needs, and that we need, provide He
has the one thing He can’t make us do: love Him with our whole hearts.
is, finally, a beautiful line at the end, one that often gets past over: “When
Peter saw [John, the disciple whom Jesus loved], he said to Jesus, ‘Lord, what
about him?’ Jesus said to him, ‘What if I want him to remain until I come? What
concern is it of yours? You follow me.’”
we get caught up on who is doing what, who decides to follow, and who decides
to walk away. You follow Me. You follow Me.
Colloquy: Close with a colloquy, or colloquies,
as the circumstances suggest, and at the end say the Our Father.
can end with a colloquy to our Lord, rejoicing in how much He came to comfort
Peter, despite his failings, and ask that we might love Him with our whole
hearts, sharing in the joy of the Risen Lord who comes, not to punish us for
our failings, but to lift us up, and to draw us closer to His Sacred Heart.
Ricciotti, Life of Christ, 5.
Cf. Fulton Sheen, The Priest Is Not His
Own, chapter “The Priest as Simon and Peter.” See also “The Return to
Divine Favor,” and Life of Christ,
chapter “Love as the Condition of Authority.”
 Interior Freedom, 32-33.
and receive all my liberty, my memory, my understanding, and my entire will, all that I have and possess. Thou hast given all to me. To Thee, O Lord, I return it. All is Thine, dispose of it wholly according to Thy will. Give me Thy love and Thy grace, for this is sufficient for me.
(Spiritual Exercises #234. Louis Puhl SJ, Translation.)